feels like life got way too easy and i have a love hate relationship towards it
i'm starting to accept it more and be ok with not needing to work work work to feel good
but still i miss being locked in and the craving is more than ever during "vacation" times
funnily this leads to me spending too much just to get rid of the money and reduce runway and have fire under my ass which is so backward
i should honestly just direct this energy towards something and it'll all be fine