upto a certain number, it’s okay to share earnings and shit - but beyond that i dont know
it’s like you’re feeding the evil to come bite you later lol
like you might not be meaning to flex or show off
but for the others it WILL come off like that because their horizons are that low
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sharing these with some close friends is okay - im just talking about putting it out in public
idk tf levels.io does it so easily
like i get it dont believe in jinx or sm but like 💀when you know the people who’ll read this will probably be envious, why even share?
this might be an indian issue
in india people are extremely selfish and envious - society trains u like that without you realizing it
you need to actively act against it and go through a mindset change
im not going to be open about numbers until
- i either cross my goal #
- my circle changes from envious and ppl who get shocked to people for whom even 100k a month is nothing
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more about circle
i am in soo many different circles and they’re so diverse, i have to be mindful of what i share to some
it’s only with a handful of friends where i am truly myself;
in all other places, it’s either a small part of me or i’m entirely faking another personality ( that’s just 1 rn lol )
human 1:1 connections are more important to me than “groups” and i optimize for that as well
so in some circles, i feel like i progressed a bit too fast compared to other folks in it, and to cut off and move on - that’s not easy when you have so much history together
and now the issue is, all circles read / consume whatever i put online and it fucking sucks
cuz who am i going to represent? the person they see?
it will be different for others
ideally, it should be “myself”
but i’ve hidden / given restrictive access to parts of me to these diff circles that im unsure as to how they’d react to see my “other side” of sorts
easy fix:
im just gonna be myself and if they dont like it, i cut them off 💀
cold but i dont know any other way
and sad part is, i dont think it’s going to be that they dont like it
jealousy is probably what’s going to happen
now the worst worst part is
the people who are better than me, they’ll find this extremely funny and cringe 😭
such a fake life we all live in
pretending to be someone who we actually aren’t
if u read all this - there are better things to do in life than listen to aadhithyan rant about identity loss
lol this started from me not being okay with sharing certain things to ranting about loss of identity
now some random mf is gonna find this and mention it and creep the fuck out of me 👍
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