Slow day again also (June 24th). Grandma and brother made some waffles – no maple syrup so I smeared some peanut butter on them. Made coffee pourover style again. Might need to skip the erythritol and milk tomorrow. Ate some leftover sashimi pieces and some rice, and a slice of the blueberry cheesecake for a very late lunch. Dropped my brother off at the movies, picked him back up again. Noticed my attention was quite wan on the drive there. Wan enough that it seemed to be affecting how I modulated my accelerator pedal. I stared at the intersection while waiting for a red light but in a very peripheral way, only noticing when the red light changed to green light in my periphery (rather than fixating on the stoplight, in my fovea). Cleaned up some links in my historic, synced Obsidian vault. Since my birthday I’ve been thinking more than usual about time. Not how much I have of it. But how little, and how the feeling of immortality that so defined my late teen years is beginning to fade. I’m mortal. One day my time will run out.
"[Growing up] is hard and nobody understands." // https://www.homestuck.com/story/2391