Just a really slow day today. Had a hard time waking up, and didn’t feel particularly refreshed. Lots of yawning, lots of tiredness. Had some oatmeal and the leftover fried onion and egg for breakfast, was cold the entire morning, really just spent time waiting for noon to come around so I could make coffee. Had coffee and an apple and a steamed sticky rice dessert for a snack, more time on the computer. A good (cut up, thank God) chunk of 2.5 hours trying to get Tailscale to work, didn’t work. Spanish at 4pm. Was alright. Got my participation in. Learned new verbs and vocabulary. Shopped for an Olympus Pen on eBay, the original model. Genuinely can’t tell if this is gear acquisition syndrome or my heart pulling my wallet around for no damn reason or both. Why can’t I be satisfied with what I have? Maybe I’m not grateful enough. Had dinner around 7:45, mom made some spicy Korean soup with tofu and mushrooms, and grandma made some eggplant chicken stirfry. Felt kind of fritzy the first few minutes but the deliciousness of the food put that to an end. Talked to Dave a little. Even late at night now I don’t feel any more sharper than this afternoon, which now that I write it out sounds like a serious red flag. Not sure why I’ve been feeling so sad lately. Could be the anxiety of college applications or an upcoming speech. Feeling less momentum to do my homework – also a red flag.
"[Growing up] is hard and nobody understands." // https://www.homestuck.com/story/2391