#STT I mean generally speaking this past week I have been kind of wrangling with my own social feelings and my social cognition and it’s just like, reevaluating the way that I respond and react to social company. I think the main takeaway from this is that I will generally go stir-crazy without some kind of social contact at least once a day that is not my family. Which sounds awful, and it is, but that’s really the state of the situation here. And it’s really a shame to say this or to have to say this because in the – in the wonderful weeks I was watching the Mary Tyler Moore Show over a bowl of pasta or some other lunch that I brought home at school, you know, eating outside next to the dining hall… It’s very very saddening to see this regression from the person that was – that wanted to take after Moore, adopt some of her conversational-ness, and for me to become this kind of really really fractured really difficult to deal with person. You know the kind of person that will glare at you rather than ask you, “How are you?” or respond in good faith to even the – the basics of small talk. I do not want to be a person that’s – that’s venom. I mean I’m already critical enough, but it’s just this this slide from social potential into social collapse where I’m, I’m consuming media, but it’s still not enough because you know that the situation is worsened, the hole has widen. And a lot of the sounds like dramatization than it is. But I’m going to pick it out later. I’m really going to anchor it and analyze it because I think this is a crisis, I think there’s a reason why these emotions have persisted for four and five and six days and not just two or three hours because this really reflects a very systemic issue at hand and one that I would like to resolve… resolve maybe over a cup of coffee at therapy, or in at one of the psychology club meets. Even that can be very implicit and not explicit like, “Hey I’m feeling lonely like can we talk?” No like implicitly like, “Oh okay, we’re going to do a game show trivia and we’re going to make some jokes and I’m going to act like a sitcom character”. I really was my healthiest and I really really felt my healthiest in the very late September when I was catching up on Mary Tyler Moore and you’ll find we come back to Mary Tyler more a lot, but it really was an anchoring show for me. It really did feel boring in the first two or three seasons but three four five six seven seasons, I’m in. That was – that’s when it start to crystallize. That’s when it starts to lock into my head that, you know, these are not just characters on his screen. These were these were people I could potentially meet in my own life. That’s one of the very hilarious things and something that I noticed pretty early on myself, actually, that people could fit into archetypes and you can almost predict some of their actions or some of their goals depending on what archetype they primarily fit into. These archetypes are very informal. They’re not very logical, but they are precipitated from many, many observations of, of people, and on Twitter. Specifically, I have three mutual follows that I could really cluster into a single archetype. They’re almost like variations of each other, and I really look at that with with interest and bemusedness and glee actually. And I look at that with a lot of excitement because it’s like you might never meet a specific person again in your entire life, but you might meet that archetype later and you might hit it off better and you might learn better and you might do better. And you might act better with that specific person. And that gives me a lot of hope even though I’m going stir-crazy without social contact. Funny how it works like that.
"[Growing up] is hard and nobody understands." // https://www.homestuck.com/story/2391