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23 December 2025, Tuesday: Mush. Just mush so far. Woke up really late around 10:00 (might need to stop taking melatonin — maybe its building up in my system?) from a really vivid dream about an old crush, vibe-coding with Google Bard (insane pick from my brain — I didn't use Bard much when it was named as such, nor do I program or vibe-code much), and looming. I met him in a place that looked like the conference room of the CaT Lab, but dimmer and smaller. We talked a bit and got to work. He was nice. He felt safe. I don't remember what we worked on; I woke up.
My family got some meatball sandwiches and egg coffee from the nearby Vietnamese store. It was pretty good, but I just wasn't into it because I could barely think about what I wanted to do today. I skipped my coffee and had half of the egg coffee (very sweet) and later at 2pm some decaf French roast to try and get something drier on my palate. I had a Costco nut bar around 4 or 5pm. Watched Internet Historian's video about Area 51. The meme culture is out of another time.
I can't remember the afternoon or the evening. No Helios. No reading, even though just before my brief nap I had that same weighed-down and grayed-out feeling of information overload and exhaustion ... I don't know what else. It doesn't matter. I really just re-read Kidd's "The Marks are on the Knowledge Worker". It was nice.
Had a very quick nap on the massage chair, around 8:00pm which gives me the energy and clarity to finish this entry, but not much else. Haven't had dinner yet either. I've had intermittent thoughts of going back to Scotts Valley this week, but I'm choosing to interpret that as a want to get out of the house.