Saturday, May 3rd 2025. Walked a bunch. Had breakfast at RCC with Sasha. Spent the afternoon inside. Time kept ticking down past 6pm (pre-gaming at Joey's for Angelina's birthday party). Left to RCC at 6:30. Shruti texted an hour in asking if me and Sasha were up to go downtown. I ignored the text, while talking to Kevin. (I was getting pretty moody about going out with Shruti and/or Sasha already. Felt insecure about my agency. No one's taking me out, ultimately. I've got to take myself out, and talk to any people I encounter myself.) Came back 2 hours later to an empty room. Seems Sasha had the energy after all. I packed up my laptop and second display into my bag and tried to find a late-night study spot. Was thinking of going to Page Smith Library at Stevenson but saw they were closed on the weekend online. Thought I'd swing by Jack Baskin. Quiet inside from what I could see through the window but not a lot of power outlets. Hiked down to Kresge, looking for one of the blue tables with the solar panel and embedded battery/plug, but didn't see anything. Wound up hunkering down at the i-Lounge instead. People were playing DND for half an hour, ish. I read some papers on Luhmann's Zettelkasten. Stayed there until midnight. Went back to dorm. Sasha had arrived. Got ready for bed and tucked in quick. Couldn't quite sleep with the light on but it was a good experiment nonetheless.
"[Growing up] is hard and nobody understands." // https://www.homestuck.com/story/2391