I've been thinking about the future more abstractly more, this week. First -- my daydreams of the future, when I'm trekking about my dorm and campus and talking(!) to people(!) assumes that I will have greater executive function by that time. That is not a given. My executive function feels about the same since the start of college and no, that is not a self compliment, that is a worry. The second thing is how contingent it is. I always know it's malleable but rarely do I feel it. And so it was when I was sitting at my desk bored because I wasn't doing work or doing much of anything frankly that I really felt that kind of zap. But of course I didn't move much.
"[Growing up] is hard and nobody understands." // https://www.homestuck.com/story/2391