Woke up early enough today, felt a bit cold, got ready. Had a turkey lettuce mayo siracha sandwich for breakfast, made some coffee with my AeroPress (18g, 300ml), grabbed my camera and photo supplies, and drove to school. A bit of traffic but not that bad. Arrived with a few minutes to spare. We went over the exposure triangle, got our cameras, and went out for the blind walk. I partnered up with my partner from last week (Adriana) and we got to exploring the campus. Technically the walk is supposed to be blind, but Adriana hadn't explored much of the campus and so it was safer and easier to just walk eyes open. We headed for the Kirsh Center and then swung back around through the L Quad and fountain. A lot of my photos were shot from waist/torso height but my actual subjects were a bit further away. I suppose my professor wanted this to be more of an exploratory activity, just to get the feel of film and a film camera down. As we walked we talked about shooting film and how college was going. Adriana is a film major, and prefers color photography to black and white. My T90 whirred and clicked and when I got to my last frame, one of the fountain, it rewound completely back into the canister, and we headed back inside. Since we weren't developing our film today we headed off early. I wanted to get a bit more practice with the steel reels but I guess that'll be next week. In the meantime I just have my film roll and canister in my bag. (The second one is going into the freezer, now.) After class I went right home. I wish I could say the drive home was as uneventful as the drive to campus. Unfortunately many many people passed me and cut me off, often without turn signals at all. I kept checking my dial wondering if I was going to slow -- not at all. I was following the flow of traffic, and in fact, speeding quite often (5-8 MPH above). Just a few miles I felt so deadened by the reckless driving that swept me by, I let all the expression out of my face, stared straight ahead, and turned myself into more of a car processor than a person. Briefly I wondered if anyone saw how dead I looked. In any event I had no issues the rest of the drive after, but it was such a disappointing cap to an otherwise very fun class. I unwound the rest of the day later. No tea today. Put maybe 6 or 7 cards into my slipbox, but couldn't get into the groove of researching and reading as I would normally do. When I reread a portion of it I actually didn't feel inspired, which tells me I am somewhat closed today (and so it is better to wait until tomorrow, if I want to write with the help of the slipbox). Mom made pasta with some ground waygu beef which was delicious and flavorful. Just enough tartness with plenty of savory kick from the beef and tomatoes. Around 9 or 10 I did the academic updates for all my transfer universities. Want to try to sleep a little earlier today. I do get ready for bed earlier, starting the beginning of this week, but it takes me maybe 5 or 10 minutes longer now to fall asleep.
"[Growing up] is hard and nobody understands." // https://www.homestuck.com/story/2391