Steps to take If nothing happens after these two interviews:
- Shrug it off
- Go off twitter
- Focus on completing K&R and do the wonderful things I'll be able to do having read the treatise on C.
- learn svelte and build personal website.
- start going through fast.ai and karpathy's videos. become an AI chad again.
- and of course take care of my child Notedown, and try to bear more children.
- and most important of all, get back into meditation again, start a regular meditation practice. Chill down a bit.
The thing I will need to watch out for is the self-loathing. I'll probably start thinking that sidu ponappa didn't find me a fit even for the junior developer role, which means I'm worthless as a programmer, which sounds ludicrous and I think objectively is.
One thing that's reassuring is studying and building wouldn't stop. What else would I do? Watch videos, scroll twitter all day? Nah, I don't like doing anything else. Sitting calmly in front of my laptop is my natural habitat.